Perhaps it is due to seeing my grandparents of both sides of my parents, but I actually detest old age. To live to retirement and then passing on would be a dream come true to me. I served a useful purpose and made it to the end. I have no wealth, I have no wife or children, why should I continue to hope for tomorrow? My life is one I hate to think about. My past actions are nothing to be proud of. I have been celibate all my life and lived a bachelor life. I don’t drink or smoke. Any time I socialized, I’m extremely awkward and shy. Why would I want to continue a trend as dull as that?