Do you need time?

I am so lost

I thought that being in the army

My loneliness would go away

It did for a time

But I come back home

And old ways set in

My pain is imagined and real

I seek companionship

And I fear being alone

And yet that time is coming closer and closer everyday

What path do I take to pass go again

My empty shell may have a new hole before too long

Maybe this time I will go through with it.

I am tired of being alone

And I’m being forced into it once again

And I’ll have no friends to help cope with it this time.