Declared 4F

I have wanted all my life to serve my country. Not as a lying rat of a politician, nor as a teacher for the corrupt Education Board, nor as a postal worker that simply delivers mail. I have always wanted to be soldier. To serve and sacrifice. To give my life to protect to corruption of the population. To be part of a unit larger than myself. To serve the enemies of God. 

Why have I been declared 4F? 

At 19, when I first tried, I had braces, I was turned down.

At 23, turned down because the army was not recruiting. Which I thought funny because I was in a recruiter’s office heating this news.

At 25, I was told I was flat footed.

At 28, The recruiter would not going to give me the time of day. I felt like I was more of a burden to him more than he wanted to talk to me. 

And the final time at 34, I took the ASVAB and got high marks. I was on my way to get physical checks and I was turned down for being honest about a health issue that I knew how to deal with. 

Thats my story. It is a pain to me. But perhaps I understand a bit of why God tore this love from me. For no man should have an idol above God. The army in some stance has been an idol to me. I may have given more to the army than I would have ever given to God. To have something that is held above God is not His plan for me. 

If God lead the Army then the story might be different. God, sadly, is not even on the board for leadership. Generals and Admirals hold that honor. Some of those leaders are so corrupt that they cannot even recognize their own mental illness. Our military leaders are being lead be the mentally disturbed. Why would I want to join a military that has insane leadership? That’s like given nuclear launch codes to a man that cannot spell nuclear. 

Oh…

Anyway. I ramble alot when my political views get in the way. 

My dream is to stand among heroes and maybe one day I will. But for today I have been rejected and that’s not a bad thing. It may sting to have hope given and ripped away. It is not a bad thing to belong to God. For he has a plan and His army has never been defeated and His General has never been unforseen and never changes.

It is not a bad thing to be forsaken by man. It just means that God has a different plan for me. I am glad that the Army wouldn’t take me, perhaps there is something else that I should look for and be a leader in another part of life.