Am I a man of God, or a man of men?

Why must there be a difference?

What was your purpose in creating me?

Was I not built to do your will?

I’m I not worth your time?

Why create me only to leave me alone?

God, will you not answer me?

Why have you abandoned me?

Will you not even now show your face?

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The gun is heavy when loaded.

The bullets are packed in there.

6 pounds of pressure.

That is all that is needed.

That and a will of pure steel.

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I am alone.

I am abandoned.

I am unanswered.

I am forgotten. 

I am without purpose.

I am without God.

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Perhaps that would be the reason that this act is considered taboo. For it is the only act that acts outside of God’s will for life. It is the only true act of freedom I have. For a God of life, what is death?